Hell freezes over
Come think about it, it’s about that time of the year to spring-clean my friends list again, much like how I delete people off my Friendster once every so often.
Some individuals are just detrimental to my sanity and my health. Some just stay friendly to leach off me one way or another. Some are just… non-friends masquerading as friends.
But I think I might be too weary to actually be arsed to do anything about everything. Not that I’ve actually been actively catching up with anyone recently, friends or otherwise, been getting increasingly anti-social of late, which is in direct contrast to the festive season occuring right now, but what the hell, I’ve been feeling too exhausted to deal with anything other than dragging myself out of bed of late.
So, well… just so you know, yeah, I know, I’m just not motivated enough to be a potty-mouthed smarty-pants. Or blatantly bitchy, depending on who you are. Yes, go ahead, be a prat if it makes you feel much better, I shall leave you in relative peace.
And if anyone really wants to know, depression feels like… hurt. A constant, nagging, throbbing hurt, just to live that extra minute. Hence the lethargy – apparently just pretending to be sane is a task requiring Herculean effort, so hell no, don’t tell me it’s just a phase, not when it hurts a bitch just to stay in touch with reality.
When it hurts all the time nothing really matters anymore, and once again it’s just… cold, in this big black void.
There’s no secret garden, really, just an uninviting hell of the endothermic variety.
gambskit said,
February 25, 2007 at 2:35 pm
well, when hurt is the only thing you feel, hurt just doesnt mean anything anymore.
Lang said,
February 25, 2007 at 6:14 pm
You’ll get through, eventually, of course it ain’t gonna happen over night. I for one read your blog on a regular basis. get the hurt out of you, rant to someone, we all know it feels better after a good ranting. Rant to someone in person, it’s way better than ranting online to a friend or posting it up on your blog. Definitely more satisfying.
leenmafia said,
February 26, 2007 at 8:17 pm
Still feel bad didnt go to ur hse. Thought u’ll be at the bloggers meet… oh well. I dont know everyone on my Friendster…the last time I deleted ‘friends’ was er…2 years ago? It’s time to take the garbage out. Hehe.. tc!
pathos said,
February 27, 2007 at 4:26 am
Old ones must go to make room for new ones…. While you are at your spring cleaning, mind if i add you to my friendster? Though i never meet you in person, I just found out we have a 3rd degree of separation, what a small world.
The Expedited Writer said,
April 5, 2007 at 1:21 pm
“Some just stay friendly to leach off me one way or another.”
I just spring cleaned that bunch off my list. I don’t really know why i hadn’t much earlier.